22 nóvember, 2008

Twilight

I want it I need it desperately!!!

I'm dying I want to read it so bad! *crying* seriously I think this whole thing is a plot to make me go crazy! The library only has the first three books in English and only one copy of each and they are out and taken until God knows when, and the Icelandic version of Twilight just came out so I could read that but really I'd rather read it in English... I guess I'll just read the first one in English and then read them all in English when I get my hands on them... I just really want to read it...

I held Edward in my arms yesterday, I was in Hagkaup and there it was lying on the table just 4000 Kr. from me... I held him, (Twilight is the book Edward is the main Vampire for those who don't know) I stroked it's spine, I opened it and read a few words, I didn't want to stop, I didn't want to part with it but Gummi dragged me away saying something about to expensive *bawling*

well I'm off to fantasise about reading the book

15 nóvember, 2008

illness...

Dear Internet

I'm so tired, and sick and stuffy and I feel like cr@p... I just wish I would get better ASAP...

yes this will be one more complaining post -I'm getting good at that am I not? ugh...

Kapitola has been sick almost a week, and I got sick again yesterday, Gummi, Ragnar and I were sick last weekend too so this isn't fair...

well to more mundane topics.

I've been climbing Mt. Washmore like crazy the past week, which was a task that I had been putting off... but I feel pretty good about myself.

although this was on the expanse of the rest of the home, I washed, hung/dried, folded and put away clothes but I still have far to go... I need to sort through Kap's clothes, she has so much stuff in her closet that is too small for her, and I need to put those in vacuum bags and put them away, and she is growing out of all the girl clothes that I have for her so she's already started to wear a lot of Ragnar's old clothes, and Ragnar was even asked the other day what his brother's name was...*sigh*

Well Ragnar has also been growing like WEED and he's now outgrown a couple more jeans, I need to buy him some more I think... he's getting SO big...

well I got a bit sidetracked and forgot what I was going to write so here we go...

later Internet...

kv. Sæunn

11 nóvember, 2008

Money doesn't create happiness...

...but does lack of money result in lack of happyness?

Dear Internet.

I'm not complaining over our situation, I'm happy about the money that we have I just wish we knew how to have money, seeing as we went so long without any and then finally when we have some it feels it's not nearly enough KWIM? Only because we don't know how to control our spending ones we finally have money...

I've been thinking alot about what I WANT not what I need - what I want is totally diffrent...I have everything that I need...

So for the things I WANT:
I want a house! That is my number one desire I want an old house that needs maintance and the it's MY maintance MY responsibility. I want to have a cealing that is not the floor of someone other then my family, I want a floor that is not a cealing of some random neighbour I want a HOUSE. I want walls that aren't connected to other peoples walls, I want to have a bathroom that doesn't share a wall with the appartment next door. Think of this, when I take a shower more often then not I hear the water running in the shower next door. To think that while I'm in there shaving my legs or what ever a person is doing that too less then 20 cm away from me! OK we're seperated by a wall but really how much does a wall do?

When me and my husband are "intemede" our headboard is resting snuggly against a wall the same person who showers next to me has her headboard against. besides the fact that while we make love odds are that we are right on top of a nice old great grandmother...yes that is sexy don't you think!??

I want a HOUSE I don't want to share any part of my "wrappings" with another family. I want to have space.

Another thing I don't really need but want is money to travel, to us packing the kids up and going to Reykjavík is a big upheaval and traveling. also costs so much that this is the only thing we can afford to do.

I also wouldn't mind new furniture. I'm not talking something expensive or fancy (although there is a very expensive and fancy dining room set I dream of sometimes) but just something that we didn't buy second hand and ugly... I also would like a real piano... I rather that over the digital one we have ;)

now again I'm not complaining over the things we have, I'm happy that I can give my family beds to sleep in and chairs to sit on and tables to eat off. I'm also very happy that I can provide my son a piano to play on even though it's a digital one instead of a real one.

I wouldn't mind a laptop and a new computer as well but I'm thankful for the computer that we have. we can do everything we need to do on it.
I wouldn't mind a new tv. ours doesn't have a remote (this is my fault I threw it on the floor and smashed it) and it is also very small. but again I'm very happy and thankful that we not only have one color tv but two! and Ragnar's TV (in his room) even has a remote (although his room is so small that there really is no need for a remote)
I wouldn't mind a new car either, I still dream of a Scoda Octavia that isn't quite as thirsty as my lovely new Corolla, but I'm really thankful that we managed to upgrade my first car (Colleen do you remember my blue car that we drove around in listening to big empty by stone temple pilots, now picture that car with two grown ups, two children one of which in a rearfacing carseat and add luggage and stroller - I know not possible!) this summer into our Corolla which we LOVE everything about exept the gas usage...

I also dream often of a spare room with an old bed, a rug on the floor, our records in a shelf and our radio/mixer/recordplayer and a couple of guitars on the wall, I think in that room we'd also have the synth and a big amp. and my mom's old desk. this would be our music room.

I also dream of a spare room small crammed with shelfs on every wall and stuff and mess all over somewhere in a pile on the desk you would be able to find a sewing machine if you looked closely and on another desk there would be abundance of scrapbooking supplyes in boxes on the floor you could find all the stuff that I have no place to put but hold some kind of a sentimental value and somewhere in there would be a desktop. that would be MY room where I could keep all the junk I wanted and sort through as I liked without any outside influenses :)
and on that room would be a padlock!!! which only I had the key to;) LOL

Now enough dreaming... this is something that won't happen any time soon...

later Internet

- Sæunn

09 nóvember, 2008

Overflow....

Dear Internet.

I feel like I'm a little in over my head to be honest, I'm such an idiot, I volunteered to be in the PTA board... in Ragnar's school... and there I volunteered to be "secretary" which I thought wouldn't be any problem but truly I feel so overwhelmed by the whole thing *sigh* I have to write down everything that happens during the meetings and post them on the website, which in part I can do - it's no problem to set things like that up in Word - but I don't know how the program Frontpage works nor do I have it set up on my computer so I think I may be in trouble... seeing as that is the program used to put things onto the webpage.... Well then I was asked to make the poster for the Yule-play and I'm not sure how well I'm doing with that... I feel so lost in this whole thing...:(
On top of all we had to come down with something the day before yesterday and have been mostly in bed since - all of us - *sigh* And tomorrow Gummi starts work again AND has a first aid class (they take those a couple of times a year in his line of duty) and I have Computer class and I'm so not willing to miss out more on Excel - I really really really want to learn how to use excel well! and then there is Ragnar's piano class and then afterwards Ragnar's group piano class - and this is just too much for me :( And the results of being mostly in bed all weekend is a messy home to acompany us into the hectic week ahead and that means a messy home all week if I'm intending to even show up in class let alone study for them...*sigh* I've come to the conclusion that I'm on overload and I can't seem to catch a break... *sigh*

Well enough whining for today, thank you for listening Internet.

-Sæunn

05 nóvember, 2008

Wishful thinking...

Hi Internet!

Today the viking lotto had a double pot, which means a whole lot of money... and we played it...Gummi and I fantasiced about what we would do with the money if we were to win - which we didn't expect or anything - just the usual meaningless talk of wishful thinking... so we are watching the balls pop up into the shoot first 28, then 9 then 12 all of which were in one row on our ticket I gasped thinking this might be it but alas 36 came up and I had no such number because I don't recall ever living in a house with that number... *sigh* then more numbers unknown to my home history came up and the dream was gone... and for some silly reason I was actually disappointed?!? Why?!? because for one fleeting moment I thought "I can maybe buy a house!"*sigh*

I don't buy tickets often but for some reason I had a "feeling" this time around... *sigh*

I just wish we would get enough money to buy this house we want and not be in dept so deep we can never resurfice KWIM?

well I'm going to go paint some more ;) later Internet!
-Sæunn

02 nóvember, 2008

Jól Alla Daga,,,

Dear Internet!

I'm just now realising that Christmas is looming around the corner and it's starting to both get me exited and stressed...
We will most likely spent Christmas eve with my mother in law and sister in law since bother Gummi and Father in law are working that night. We plan on exchanging the presents of Gummi's family there, and then the rest we will probably open and exchange on 25 Dec with my family...

I've done NO Christmas preperation AT ALL, Mt. Washmore has been growing over the last few weeks as my schedule seems tighter then ever, and my procrestination is really taking it's toll on the house - along with my homework...*sigh*.

I'm going to make a list of Christmas presents so that I can go shopping next saturday hopefully...we'll see how that one pans out...I hope to have all Christmas presents wrapped and ready by 1 Dec... we'll see if that will truly happen... I'm also hoping to have the Christmas cards out by then - we'll see if that's being optemistic...

later my dear Internet,

-S

*translation: Jól Alla Daga - Christmas Every Day.

01 nóvember, 2008

Follow Through...

Dear Internet,

I'm starting to think I severely lack follow through..I'm such a dreamer
I want so many things but most of them are quite impossible...
I have been dreaming about a house for weeks on end now - seriously dreams while I'm sleeping dreaming...
It's an old house built over one hundred years ago, which means it is getting on in years...and it's not been taken very good care of... so it's a real fixer upper...

I'm thinking this might be too much for us... seeing as how I lack follow through I'm pretty scared that if so unlikely happens that we manage to actually buy the house - let alone move in! We'll never be able to get to the point of fixing the things that desperately need fixing and that would be really sad...

I don't know why I'm thinking so much about this house - it's just - we're so sick of having to share walls... I mean - walls is ok I guess but the part that our floor is on top of the ceiling of a persons appartment is just to much for me - not that we get any noise complaints but I certainly wouldn't want to be our neighbours...

And that's not all, I have this same problem when it comes to disaplining my children, I have no follow through...

This is also a recurring problem when it comes to my goal of loosing weight - I really want to get back to my old self - I miss that... I just don't have any will power when it comes to unhealthy eating and sweets.... I also have this problem about working out at home - I have no modivation to do that...

All in all - I'm in desperate need of a follow through - think I can buy that somewhere in a store? whole sale maybe? "20 packages follow through please, thank you that will be all"

I'm going to go tear out my hair at the clutter my kids are spreading all over the house - I can't wait to sit on the sofa and find legos up my butt UGH!

Later Internet!

-Sæunn

27 október, 2008

Cold, Snow, Crazy Child etc.

Hey Internet!

I posted this on my chat board but didn't bother to write it again so here goes:

I'm so glad this day is drawing to an end...

This day is so nightmarish I've been praying to wake up ALL DAY!

first Gummi and I had a HUGE fight (it's the time for one I suppose - we argue a lot in my family, and we've been good for so long...) but we're good now....

then I took Ragnar to private piano class, which was disasterous like you couldn't believe!

He wouldn't play no matter what, then the teacher just made me sit and play the variations for a bit while he stewed UNDER the grand piano I was playing on...

Then the half an hour was up and I got up (he didn't want to play at all!) but ohh no as soon as we mentioned going back to school and that the period was over he's all into playing - he started this screaming fit - you can picture this, the school is rather quiet, you can hear a couple of violins playing in the distance but no other sounds and then the blood curtling screams of my son!

then I CARRIED him out of the class room - SCREAMING and kicking and sat him down by our coats and there is no way for me to get close enough because of flailing limbs everywhere to get the kid into his gear and at that point the teachers have started to come to the hall to see what the comotion is! I was so mortified!

Well There was a woman there really nice woman(I think she might be the vice principle but I'm not sure), who started talking to him and actually managed to get him calm after a while and her daughter (who's also a teacher there) told me that it happened often while they were starting out - it sometimes is a battle of wills to get the child to understand the concept of the time limit - they want to play when they feel like it KWIM?

well I was no less mortified and we were late to boot! Ragnar is supposed to be back to school before 11:45 (class is over 11:30) if he's supposed to eat lunch there and we didn't make it on time so I couldn't drop him off until 1pm... which wasn't great cause I had class at 1pm... well we went to Amma's and had lunch there and then I drove him to school and went to school myself (only 20 minutes late do to much much snow on roads) then I had to leave an hour and a half early (when the teacher just started to explain Exel (computer class) - we had spen almost three hours revising Word!!!) but almost forgot and didn't get out of the class until 20 to four - not great when I had to drive to pick Ragnar up, then pick up Kap, then drop Kap off at Amma's and then drive to the music school AGAIN for group class by four!

needless to say I got stuck in the snow *insert a lot of TOS* and after a while of backwards and forwards jugging I finally got out of it (then I had to drive over a HUGE bump made mostly out of hardened snow! I heard the stomach of the car scrape on it!) and got to the music scool at 4:13....

not as late as I thought I would be but still...

well there Ragnar continued his act of being a little crazy and was soooooooo ill behaved I actually threatened to take him home! then he got better...

then back to Amma's where we had dinner and then a blizzard started which I had to first pack the kids in the car in (borrowed an extra coat from Amma's cause my leather jacket does not work to well in a blizzard) then rinse the snow from the windsheild and then I finally had to drive home in this terrible weather! I thank God I didn't get stuck cause the snow was so thick somewhere I had to plow through...

Did I mention I drive a frontwheel drive auto shift Corolla?!?!?!!!

Well Internet I'm going to let that do for now...later all!
-S.

24 október, 2008

Always late...





Hi Internet!

I've missed you a lot - sorry I didn't get around to posting for a while... I changed phone company a couple of weeks ago and last friday the internet connection was moved from the old provider to the new one - only problem was that the new provider hadn't shipped out the router yet!!! Well I waited paitiently until tuesday when I called to ask WTH the router was - ofcourse they still hadn't shipped it but it got here wednesday morning.... finally!

Then my busy busy schedule kept me from visiting my blog until yesterday - but then I found I had forgotten my password.... well truth be told I hadn't forgotten my password I just tryed to log on using my username and not my e-mail adress *blush* blond moment!

So my dear internet here I am! Alive and well, ;)

This passing week was a themework week in Ragnar's music school so there were no piano classes but Ragnar had three days this week a class in dance and playing class - it was fun, it was for the age 3-5 and Ragnar enjoyed it tremendously. The children were allowed to come in costumes to the classes and Ragnar went as a pirate on Monday, as Buzz Lightyear on Wednesday and on Thursday he went with a Tiger paint-job on his face LOL - that was something he got at school so we ditched the Darth Wader costume ;)

In that class there were a man and a woman who played all kinds of dance and music games with them, Hoky Poky, the bird dance, the Macarena and something to do with sleeping/walking/dancing/eating bears.... to name a few. They also graduated on Thursday from this class by recieving a rose and celebrated their work by drinking orange Djús and eating Popcorn :)

Kapitola was lucky enough to get to tag along to the last class and was really good at participating with the older kids :) She had a blast and also got a rose :)

In school this week I've done pretty good although I have been late every single day this week! and last week too!!! I had a blast in the Gym this week and finally am seeing some results - no pounds lost but I have gotten better at not dying on the treadmill LOL - I only get a little short of breath after a while now - N/B I'm not talking about running! Both days I went in the Sauna with the girls afterwards - it's nice :)

Today I went to the Punktur - a local place where you can do crafts and just pay for the stuff you use. a great place to be and I made a couple of objects intended for Christmas presents we'll see how they come out! - two clay objects one molten glass object...

I also took Ragnar to the Dr. today. He has been having some bowel problems - no need to get into that here. We got there late (like everywhere this week!) and got a referral to a pedi We'll get a call in someday soon. I'll update later on.

After the Dr. Appointment I took Ragnar with me back to the Punktur, he was such a good well behaved child waiting patiently there while I finished the work I was doing! There is a playing corner there for children and it has a few tubs of toys. Ragnar took out one with Playmos and played with that for a while singing for himself and being 100% angel :) The older women were so impressed they kept raving about how well behaved he was and how sweet he was sitting there playing quietly and singing a song. After a while he got tired of the playmo so he neatly put it back in the box (without being asked!!!) and put the box back and took out a book, which he read quietly sitting there like a good boy, then he put that book back and took out another one and so on. That nearly finished the older ladies there off - they couldn't stop going on about how well behaved and how well raised he was!
One thing is certain, my mommy heart has hardly ever been this proud!!!

Then afterwards Ragnar and I drove to pick Kapitola up (late - as always) and Ragnar fell asleep in the car - resulting in him being up still UGH! at 9:32 pm...

I'm so tired and I hoped to be able to watch one tree hill before bed...:(

well this is really long I'll throw in a couple of pics and then I'm off

Goodnight Internet,
-Sæunn

13 október, 2008

Hectic hectic mondays...



Warning! complaining ahead!

Ohh Internet, I'm so tired...so so so tired...

The day started out with the kids invading Big-Bed at 6:30 am just as I was about to snooze, well they whined their way out of there by 7am and got their wish - breakfast at home (they usually eat breakfast at the daycare/pre-k -).
Gummi drove them to school and I had breakfast with him when he got back, then I got under the shower and got myself ready for a therapy session/interview - with my princible - I've told you I'm not in a normal school - I'm in a school for people who have some stuff to work through and that truly is true for me.

Well after half an hour of the therapy session (first of this winter) the prinseble said "Sæunn, you have now told me about your children and your husband, some of your school friends, and your extanded family - but how are YOU!?!?" - I didn't have an answer... seriously how am I? - my world revolves around my family and friends - always has... how can I answer the question "how are you?" without talking about them? - immpossible... always the same answer "ohh I'm fine - the kids are doing great, they grow like weeds! Kapitola is always adding new words to her vocabulary and Ragnar is *insert current piano status here* and he's doing well in pre-k...Gummi is doing great at work and hoping to get a promotion soon"

I suppose I have a problem... so that is my homework until next session - find out how I'M doing...

well after this revalation at the session I had to rush of and pick up Ragnar and rush with him to the music school - private lesson - there he acted like a bafoon - he was compleatly crazy - showed no respect and kept laughing at the teacher trying to push her buttons... she ended up telling him to step away from the piano the lesson was over (there were still good 15 minutes left) and proceeded to "teaching" me for the remainder of the lesson - I earned a sticker nananana-naa Ragnar definetly didn't! LOL

Well then off to pre-k with him, and I went home to have a quick lunch (Ragnar has lunch at school) before going to school - computers - I did OK finished what I could do today and was early done - off to pick up Ragnar and Kapitola drive Kapitola to Amma's and Ragnar to the musicschool for group session, where the Suzuki piano beginners meet with their parents ever other week for an hour of playing the piano and playing games (which are all helpful for piano studies)

then off to Amma's with Ragnar and we ended up staying there for dinner, then home - late bedtime *sigh* and struggle to fall asleep and Gummi was allready working when I got home...

and I almost forgot I have to read two chapters of social studies and I've got a slight fever resulting in burning bones... ugh...

well Internet - I'm off to read and then sleep goodnight!

Sæunn

08 október, 2008

Another blog - another day...



Hi Internet!

Another day has come and gone, Gummi dropped me and the kids off at daycare,school and pre-k and went home to change the tires again, since the snow has mostly gone it's pretty pointless to have winter tires on the car. I had English and then Computers, English was fun, the teacher is quite brilliant and we had fun in class today ;) Computers was same ol same ol - not fun - not boring...

I've been reading a bit of Harry Potter - as usual LOL - I just started the Deathly Hallows - again LOL

I'm such a nerd...

Well between classes today I had lunch with Tóti - nothing special really - I had my sammy with cottage cheese and cucumbers and a light yogurt as a desert and he had a pizza from the bakery by the bridge - can't say my cottage cheese sammy was very fulfilling next to that pizza *slobber* LOL

after school Gummi picked me up and we went to pick up the kids and then dropped in at the In-laws, which wasn't really fun... turns out that it isn't quite enough that my mother-in-law is suffering from cancer - which by the way isn't curable cause it's spread all over - but now it seems my father-in-law is loosing the power in his legs - really what did this family do to deserve this?

well on a happier note Ragnar is making some progress with his piano studies - although we can't get him to rehears every day, but he's good at what he's learned ;)

Well my dear Internet, I think I should go and continue with the adventures of Harry Potter.

so I bid you goodnight and hope you'll have a lovely tomorrow

- Sæunn

04 október, 2008

First blog...and introductions

Hi Internet!

I just created this spanking new blog - can you believe it ;) How do you like it?
I should introduce right? I'm Sæunn I'm 24 years old and I'm Icelandic.
I'm thinking about sharing with you - Internet - the goings on in my life.
I'm a Mommy, that's my #1 job, a mommy, to my two wonderful kids,

Ragnar is four years old, he's studying playing counting to 14 and knowing the ABC at his preschool where he hangs out during the day. He's also learning to play the piano in the local music school, he's in a Suzuki piano lesson program which means I go with him and learn to teach him at home.

Kapitola is one and a half years old, she goes to a in-home daycare during the day, it's run by very lovely married couple who are big fans of her :) She's the oldest in the daycare which makes her the little queen of the playground and she controls her "minions" LOL She's a fast learner and already talking up a storm, and anything her brother does she imitates LOL

I'm also a loving wife to Gummi who works every other week as a security guard, 12 hour night-shifts and as a SAHD the other week. he's a great man and I wouldn't be who I am without him.

I'm a student, I'm learning how to study at the moment while dealing with the cards that life dealt me. which isn't really easy but it's fun. I'm working on a lot of problems and hopefully I will - someday - get to a place where I'm a happy person!

don't get me wrong I love my life! my kids and DH are the greatest but our situations could be better...

I'm ADD and I also suffer from depression and anxiety disorder - joyful joyful *sigh* which makes the whole mess of my life a bit more difficult to manage... but it's doable - really it is!

I'm also in the PTA where I'm a co-leader.

I am a SHE - Sidetracked home executive - which means my home is a bit of a CHAOS (can't have anyone over syndrome) and that is something I'm trying to work on here, I hope that you - my dear Internet - will show me the support that I need to go through this whole thing.

take care!

- Sæunn