Follow Through...

Dear Internet,

I'm starting to think I severely lack follow through..I'm such a dreamer
I want so many things but most of them are quite impossible...
I have been dreaming about a house for weeks on end now - seriously dreams while I'm sleeping dreaming...
It's an old house built over one hundred years ago, which means it is getting on in years...and it's not been taken very good care of... so it's a real fixer upper...

I'm thinking this might be too much for us... seeing as how I lack follow through I'm pretty scared that if so unlikely happens that we manage to actually buy the house - let alone move in! We'll never be able to get to the point of fixing the things that desperately need fixing and that would be really sad...

I don't know why I'm thinking so much about this house - it's just - we're so sick of having to share walls... I mean - walls is ok I guess but the part that our floor is on top of the ceiling of a persons appartment is just to much for me - not that we get any noise complaints but I certainly wouldn't want to be our neighbours...

And that's not all, I have this same problem when it comes to disaplining my children, I have no follow through...

This is also a recurring problem when it comes to my goal of loosing weight - I really want to get back to my old self - I miss that... I just don't have any will power when it comes to unhealthy eating and sweets.... I also have this problem about working out at home - I have no modivation to do that...

All in all - I'm in desperate need of a follow through - think I can buy that somewhere in a store? whole sale maybe? "20 packages follow through please, thank you that will be all"

I'm going to go tear out my hair at the clutter my kids are spreading all over the house - I can't wait to sit on the sofa and find legos up my butt UGH!

Later Internet!

-Sæunn