Money doesn't create happiness...

...but does lack of money result in lack of happyness?

Dear Internet.

I'm not complaining over our situation, I'm happy about the money that we have I just wish we knew how to have money, seeing as we went so long without any and then finally when we have some it feels it's not nearly enough KWIM? Only because we don't know how to control our spending ones we finally have money...

I've been thinking alot about what I WANT not what I need - what I want is totally diffrent...I have everything that I need...

So for the things I WANT:
I want a house! That is my number one desire I want an old house that needs maintance and the it's MY maintance MY responsibility. I want to have a cealing that is not the floor of someone other then my family, I want a floor that is not a cealing of some random neighbour I want a HOUSE. I want walls that aren't connected to other peoples walls, I want to have a bathroom that doesn't share a wall with the appartment next door. Think of this, when I take a shower more often then not I hear the water running in the shower next door. To think that while I'm in there shaving my legs or what ever a person is doing that too less then 20 cm away from me! OK we're seperated by a wall but really how much does a wall do?

When me and my husband are "intemede" our headboard is resting snuggly against a wall the same person who showers next to me has her headboard against. besides the fact that while we make love odds are that we are right on top of a nice old great grandmother...yes that is sexy don't you think!??

I want a HOUSE I don't want to share any part of my "wrappings" with another family. I want to have space.

Another thing I don't really need but want is money to travel, to us packing the kids up and going to Reykjavík is a big upheaval and traveling. also costs so much that this is the only thing we can afford to do.

I also wouldn't mind new furniture. I'm not talking something expensive or fancy (although there is a very expensive and fancy dining room set I dream of sometimes) but just something that we didn't buy second hand and ugly... I also would like a real piano... I rather that over the digital one we have ;)

now again I'm not complaining over the things we have, I'm happy that I can give my family beds to sleep in and chairs to sit on and tables to eat off. I'm also very happy that I can provide my son a piano to play on even though it's a digital one instead of a real one.

I wouldn't mind a laptop and a new computer as well but I'm thankful for the computer that we have. we can do everything we need to do on it.
I wouldn't mind a new tv. ours doesn't have a remote (this is my fault I threw it on the floor and smashed it) and it is also very small. but again I'm very happy and thankful that we not only have one color tv but two! and Ragnar's TV (in his room) even has a remote (although his room is so small that there really is no need for a remote)
I wouldn't mind a new car either, I still dream of a Scoda Octavia that isn't quite as thirsty as my lovely new Corolla, but I'm really thankful that we managed to upgrade my first car (Colleen do you remember my blue car that we drove around in listening to big empty by stone temple pilots, now picture that car with two grown ups, two children one of which in a rearfacing carseat and add luggage and stroller - I know not possible!) this summer into our Corolla which we LOVE everything about exept the gas usage...

I also dream often of a spare room with an old bed, a rug on the floor, our records in a shelf and our radio/mixer/recordplayer and a couple of guitars on the wall, I think in that room we'd also have the synth and a big amp. and my mom's old desk. this would be our music room.

I also dream of a spare room small crammed with shelfs on every wall and stuff and mess all over somewhere in a pile on the desk you would be able to find a sewing machine if you looked closely and on another desk there would be abundance of scrapbooking supplyes in boxes on the floor you could find all the stuff that I have no place to put but hold some kind of a sentimental value and somewhere in there would be a desktop. that would be MY room where I could keep all the junk I wanted and sort through as I liked without any outside influenses :)
and on that room would be a padlock!!! which only I had the key to;) LOL

Now enough dreaming... this is something that won't happen any time soon...

later Internet

- Sæunn